goodness los angeles

today

went to drag strip racing in pomona with so much exhaust and rubber in our lungs. the cars zoomed by and you felt in in your stomach, it was disgusting and beautiful at the same time.

schezeuan hot pot in san gabriel with so much chili in our stomachs

art show in echo park in the front room of somebodys house, beautiful paintings for the eyes and assembleges a la hannah the german collagist i will remember her name later

so happy to be in LA

making melodies string do i feel good saying this so that i see more often? does that mean anything more to me than you or the backwards speak you think

linking celebrity actions and half made up passions i know i really mean, i know i really mean

things that make screams and make this word

new words new life i keep looking up names to keep track of things just to know whats going on in seattle but its mainly out of a curiousity it makes me crazy that that was the immediate lif e and now is the distant: i will never ever go back

and people pop in my head who i would see everyday and its like a comfort to see and say hi and its like compartment B section A where that world lives and i just wonder that i will ever hve time to make a unicorn latch hook rug, i realy want to

and now im not so busy and accumulating hobbies and maybe this is what happens to child actors when they grow too old for their parts they turn around and take roles you dont expect and fail miserably and then pick up hobbies im all for anyone who picks up kniting.

hobbies and things to occpy time andliving alone on bellevue avenue made me so acutly aware of the time that you sepnd occupying with books hobbies all around me people lived singly single studio lives the man with tourettes spedning his time crouched at the window making the window blinds go up and down, mis lady of the upstairs spending her time at the soup kitchen and gardening (to make up for what a terrible landlord she was) the man downstairs from her who had two kids he spent his weekends with they rode their big wheels up and sdown the walkway in front of the building screaming playing