my mother is obsessed with sarah maclachlan right now, its utterly incomprehensible where this fan-dom came from;previously the 49rs, not much else i can remember. She calls me to bid on magazines and bootleg CDS on EBay. she gets really excited when you can buy it now and it saves me the trouble. "you make your mother very h appy" and i understand, like its become something she can share with me even though i cant stand the music, i can at least participate in her excitement by being an accomplice in it.

So now is the time to go to new york, to buy my ticket andbe quiet about it.

Capricorn:Be sure to accept all the intriguing invitations that are liable to be coming your way at this time. Your psychic antennae should really be out right now, and your dreams could provide you with plenty of valuable insights as well. You might be obsessing about certain money, power or control issues when there's really no point in it. Just be careful not to burn any bridges right now.

from artnet.com news (always a good read)
"Among the curious works in the show is Fish, a kind of arcade video game (viewers insert a quarter to play) in which a virtual goldfish is guided to safety through treacherous, predator-infested waters. If you lose the game, a real goldfish is automatically released into a large bowl containing a live Oscar fish, which promptly devours it."

i love that i love the serious consequence i love how you wan to interact so badly but you cant. or do, with responsibility. je suis responsible, ju suis.

its raining like crazy, again, i dont see how it can continue like this, los angeles rain is like saved up for the last year and all comes down now. I drove to an interview yesterday, all the way in brentwood (same as below, empty, cold, clean, what it wa like) and simultaneously the driver side wiper and rear tail lights went out. as i was crossing the streett in front of the art center. it was like a bad disaster movie, and i was really really really far from home.

crafts magazines from the seventies are the best sources for do it yourself fashion excitement, chick t shirt and rainbow legwarmers and fuzzy tube tops all that bad good fashion all you can make or modify yourself.

went to a gallery for an interview on melrose, up in that what feels like a very expensive armpit of santa monica blvd. little boutiques and Galleries with a capital G. clean. empty. cold. thats what it felt like. not what i thought of it.

thought the work was really fantastic and it was like drinking coffee for the eyes not expecting much beyond an antique store with repro 19th century artwork, this was a place full of colorful deep beautiful abstract work, like artwork in puerto rico/

i really super want to work in a gallery. if yr reading this and you are my hero, find me that job please?

Theres a show coming up in new york that im still not sure that im supposed to be in or do i have a ticket or can i get the pieces together compounded with this being the shortest month of them all compounded with the brokest month of it all times 2.

but now i am drinking coffee and maybe someone will buy stupid music ephemnera from me on ebay and maybe i can start some work this weekend and i can crochet another scarf (my mom emails do you have warm enough clothes to go to new york? Its still snowing there. shes under teh impression that its warm here and lately it has not been, i made a scarf that i will wear today called sunny side up it looks like breakfast a. made yesterday and repeat today.)

namely i cant find anyone in LA who mounts photographs on aluminum. I feel like i now dreamed it that it was a process that i imagined but how can that be? I swear i have seen work in museums that was mounted this way, the lab i usually go to has it listed that they do but dont all of a sudden anymore. Im starting to understand that it just spraying glue to stick it on but now i regret spending so much time in college ignoring the presentation lectures in photo studio: i was using my sewing machine at that point crudely attaching pictures to fabric that way, being reactionary and destroying the precious ness of the image. thats what i used to say. Now i just want to know how to do this normal thing. and i have a week to figure it out.

i saw joan again walking around the neightborhood. she was wearing head to toe leopard print but some of it differnt size print and fabrics. and she held out a new drawing in front of her, simular to the one before, this one was red camillias. it was cold, and she looked lke she was shivering.